This is maybe a provocative title, but I guess it's my conclusion on a quite long "healing journey" – I should start paying the people who are actually contributing to my sanity. I think that's the conclusion because the longer I live, the more I realise that almost none of the problems that have sent … Continue reading Why I’m giving my therapy money to antiracism work
Follow-up to yesterday's rambling spontaneous post, I guess. It does seem that when I really ask a question, internally, kind of earnestly – the answer sometimes actually shows up fast. (Sometimes slow, but this time it's instant delivery.) I don't think I jotted this down on this blog, but a while back I asked myself … Continue reading Grief and truth; thoughts on ‘healing’ trauma and liminal experiences
CW: medical trauma, but nothing graphic or detailed; some intense emotionThis is more a "documentary" note to self than anything else. Document some events and insights that I don't have the energy to describe in detail and analyse (in a comprehensible way) for the benefit of others at this moment. So, I had a dream … Continue reading Autism and birth trauma
At the end of my first post on autism and complex PTSD, I emptily promised a follow-up article pondering the nature of flashbacks vs. meltdowns. Many autistic folks also have C-PTSD (= more or less permanent habit and perception shifts in response to repeated trauma – which doesn't have to look "dramatic" from the outside; see … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?
For the last two years approximately, I have entered a living situation that was a continuous, multiple-times-a-day "trigger" (however much I dislike the term) for a long and partly intergenerational C-PTSD story around migration. In brief, I was living in the country whose mere language sets off reactions in me that are (seriously and by … Continue reading The “waking up from a nightmare” experience
Yesterday I saw another person asking about autism and trauma on the #ActuallyAutistic Twitter. I didn't have the energy to redirect them to the few resources I know, but thought I'd chronicle a couple more personal observations on the topic, whether for future use or for other folk to tell me if this is what … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus
On the intersections between Complex PTSD and autism. Are there autistics who don't "catch" C-PTSD? Are there autism-specific forms and healing paths? And my idea of autism-specific causes (hint: double-empathy problem). Welcomes feedback.
On how sensory (visual and other) thinkers might need to switch channel and work in the natural language of our minds to really get and apply some recovery concepts. Relevant to autism and Complex PTSD.
On Pete Walker's book about Complex PTSD, the Fawn response to emotional neglect, how sensitive we are and how confusing mind-reading can become the habitual response to confronting humans.