How to use suicidal thoughts as a ceremonial sabre to cut the crap

Very personal account of turning suicidal thoughts around to acquire determination and skill in nipping in the bud that which kills (the soul) slowly. Although the subject matter is heavy, this is not graphic or negative. Still, trigger warning if you are in crisis: personal plea, please get help.

Is depression a choice?

Late last year, perhaps in November, I decided to not be depressed anymore. A lot of crap had happened, and I was feeling crappy. I could sense myself going into the tailspin that I know really, really well – after hundreds (if not thousands? let me calculate the years) of repetitions. . Mindful, repetitious observation …