I can't stand "reading" music, I can't stand sheet music, I can't stand music lessons. You too? I can't play by ear too well either, can't sing on pitch and sometimes find it hard to tune a guitar (I can hear two tones are different, which the heck is higher?). But I still love producing … Continue reading How to learn the piano by feel: grey day meditation. (Improvisation.)
Just for fun. Let go of the paralysis of perfectionism and ego and listen to a few musical characters walking down the street. Featuring today's humorous piano improvisation.
I've been planning to write a post about solitude, loneliness and isolation for a while. Is solitude good or bad? Everyone thinks it's bad. And I'm crazy I got myself into it. Then why the heck did I get myself into it? Is hiding yourself away in the country for months without having a face-to-face … Continue reading How to walk the tightrope between social burnout and agonising isolation?
Anger defines the boundary between a "yes" and an organic "no". This "no" does not arise in your head (intellectual thoughts). It arises in your belly, for the most part. Perhaps the heart participates in it, when the anger concerns injustice done to another. (And if it is rage, it may even arise in your … Continue reading How to get out of anger loops. And why honouring anger is vital especially for HSPs, empaths, and every stripe of cultural underdog.
Acceptance allergy I used to be allergic to the mere mention of "acceptance" in any kind of psychology or spirituality or self-help book. It would give me a psychological rash. Accept traumatic past events? Accept injustice? Accept the state of the world? . Acceptance solves most of your problems The general theme would be that … Continue reading How to misunderstand radical acceptance, and what being at home with sensations and emotions may mean.
Story time This was earlier this year. A friend who claimed that I had fixed her knee (this story: The physical empath enters your knee) called me up in Berlin, saying one of her friends was worried about her daughter. I had seen that friend in a picture, but never met her. I knew she was … Continue reading The black-footed girl. True story on clairvoyance, and why I entered and quit energy healing.
This is the right-brain companion to my last crazy scientist dream post, which was giving you the fun theory of how I've gradually come, over the last 15+ years, to read some of my recurring, bewildering, intense, deep dream symbols as compass needles pointing me to dangers and potentials inherent in the various types of … Continue reading Using dreams as your soul’s GPS (2)
This is not a post about looking up dream symbols in encyclopaedias. It's about my 15+ years of engagement with intense, touching and puzzling dream symbols that have kept recurring, shifting, morphing, repeating again, progressing, regressing, throughout these years. Yes, admittedly it started with reading C. G. Jung. But the meat of it was unceasing … Continue reading How the crazy scientist uses dreams to navigate life challenges – in an empirical way
Late last year, perhaps in November, I decided to not be depressed anymore. A lot of crap had happened, and I was feeling crappy. I could sense myself going into the tailspin that I know really, really well – after hundreds (if not thousands? let me calculate the years) of repetitions. . Mindful, repetitious observation … Continue reading Is depression a choice?