. Whenever life confined me to solitude (with loneliness and feelings of abandonment being my most frequent tormentor), I tried to turn it around and remember that at age 10 ... or 8 ... I don't remember ... I wanted to be a monk. I try to tell myself, Look, this is the Himalaya you've … Continue reading Vague variations on the ten bulls (a Zen parable on taming the mind)
I haven't been doing justice to this blog's title lately – in fact, it's made me feel somewhat guilty and ashamed. Reaching too high. This is because the last weeks have been another "zero point" phase – and these phases are so frequent in my life. (Sometimes I'm thinking of reading Dabrowski's Theory of Positive … Continue reading Strength and resilience in constant disintegration?
Story time This was earlier this year. A friend who claimed that I had fixed her knee (this story: The physical empath enters your knee) called me up in Berlin, saying one of her friends was worried about her daughter. I had seen that friend in a picture, but never met her. I knew she was … Continue reading The black-footed girl. Another true story on clairvoyance, and why I entered and quit energy healing.
It's been hard for me to write this week. Apparently overexposed myself to the sun due to unforeseen events, then had a host of strange symptoms; no health insurance and fear of doctors, living alone and without someone who would hold my hand throughout this strange spell of palpitations, anxiety, vertigo and nausea. Realising yet … Continue reading A journal entry in improvised music
This is not a post about looking up dream symbols in encyclopaedias. It's about my 15+ years of engagement with intense, touching and puzzling dream symbols that have kept recurring, shifting, morphing, repeating again, progressing, regressing, throughout these years. Yes, admittedly it started with reading C. G. Jung. But the meat of it was unceasing … Continue reading How the crazy scientist uses dreams to navigate life challenges – in an empirical way
I'm a physical (and emotional) empath, or as I recently learned – someone with mirror-touch synaesthesia. Meaning that I feel other people's sensations in my own body when I focus on a person, or on more sensitive days, when I just see the person (that includes random strangers in the street); and sometimes (apparently) when … Continue reading Mirror touch synaesthesia and feeling others’ pain
Every since my first vipassana retreat in 2009, tools from the mindfulness family have been my preferred clearing tool for dealing with my own (often intense) experiences and emotions. While my meditation practice has not been formal or technical, I credit it with being the main tool that allowed me to gradually move out of … Continue reading Mindfulness-based energy clearing (for empaths and otherwise)