Update on autistics in cities, sanity as a currency and tribal apoptosis

Long break from writing. Moving to another city in another country and a different (sub)culture, living with something like a partner, dealing with city, changes, trying to manage arranging an apartment. Too much to deal with to keep a focus on writing. Both good times in a busy way, and just overwhelm from too many … Continue reading Update on autistics in cities, sanity as a currency and tribal apoptosis

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Torn between the company of humans, of nature, of self. Some perhaps autistic perspectives.

I saw clouds of sadness of slowness I was welcoming solitude with a safety net with an "other shore". . I'm not sure why it's so difficult: either I am with you, and then I feel the compulsion to know in each split second what exactly you expect from me, what to say, what to … Continue reading Torn between the company of humans, of nature, of self. Some perhaps autistic perspectives.

How to walk the tightrope between social burnout and agonising isolation?

I've been planning to write a post about solitude, loneliness and isolation for a while. Is solitude good or bad? Everyone thinks it's bad. And I'm crazy I got myself into it. Then why the heck did I get myself into it? Is hiding yourself away in the country for months without having a face-to-face … Continue reading How to walk the tightrope between social burnout and agonising isolation?

Vague variations on the ten bulls. A Zen parable on taming the mind in solitude.

. Whenever life confined me to solitude (with loneliness and feelings of abandonment being my most frequent tormentor), I tried to turn it around and remember that at age 10 ... or 8 ... I don't remember ... I wanted to be a monk. I try to tell myself, Look, this is the Himalaya you've … Continue reading Vague variations on the ten bulls. A Zen parable on taming the mind in solitude.

Asperger’s revisited. Autistic, gifted, sensitive, psychic?

  A few days ago I bumped into an excellent blog by an a woman with (officially diagnosed) Asperger's (this one). In addition to that, after debriefing me about my family life, my therapist/coach asked whether my father is autistic (based on a brief description I gave of our relationship). And for the cherry on … Continue reading Asperger’s revisited. Autistic, gifted, sensitive, psychic?

Empathic sensitivity as an initiation journey

I take it as a given that highly sensitive people (HSPs), intuitives and empaths have many unique strengths. You can find lists of them in almost any (upbeat) publication on the topic – sensitive people are typically deep thinkers, perceptive in the interpersonal, natural, and often cultural realms (think artists, musicians, writers), and often care … Continue reading Empathic sensitivity as an initiation journey

1984: why do they all doublespeak?

In a previous post, I have described the Catch-22 (crazy-making) situation of having empath experiences while not realising others don't. To keep up the reference to dystopic novels, over time this landed me in a serious 1984 episode of doublespeak. Because in believing that all people have intense empath and intuitive experiences which for some enigmatic … Continue reading 1984: why do they all doublespeak?

Catch-22: seeing the elephant in the room, and not realising others don’t

This is another episode from my empath story, this time in the form of a brief anatomy of madness. Because by my late teens, I thought I was going crazy. However, I never quite understood the logical structure of why. Now I think I do. I put it out there because I believe that phrasing … Continue reading Catch-22: seeing the elephant in the room, and not realising others don’t