Long break from writing. Moving to another city in another country and a different (sub)culture, living with something like a partner, dealing with city, changes, trying to manage arranging an apartment. Too much to deal with to keep a focus on writing. Both good times in a busy way, and just overwhelm from too many … Continue reading Update on autistics in cities, sanity as a currency and tribal apoptosis
I saw clouds of sadness of slowness I was welcoming solitude with a safety net with an "other shore". . I'm not sure why it's so difficult: either I am with you, and then I feel the compulsion to know in each split second what exactly you expect from me, what to say, what to … Continue reading Torn between the company of humans, of nature, of self. Some perhaps autistic perspectives.
I've been planning to write a post about solitude, loneliness and isolation for a while. Is solitude good or bad? Everyone thinks it's bad. And I'm crazy I got myself into it. Then why the heck did I get myself into it? Is hiding yourself away in the country for months without having a face-to-face … Continue reading How to walk the tightrope between social burnout and agonising isolation?
Reflections on similarities and cross-connections between being a cultural outsider (migrant, third culture kid, cross-cultural, bilingual) and conceptualising aspie-style autism as a (sub)cultural difference. Life experiences and resources.
. Whenever life confined me to solitude (with loneliness and feelings of abandonment being my most frequent tormentor), I tried to turn it around and remember that at age 10 ... or 8 ... I don't remember ... I wanted to be a monk. I try to tell myself, Look, this is the Himalaya you've … Continue reading Vague variations on the ten bulls. A Zen parable on taming the mind in solitude.
A few days ago I bumped into an excellent blog by an a woman with (officially diagnosed) Asperger's (this one). In addition to that, after debriefing me about my family life, my therapist/coach asked whether my father is autistic (based on a brief description I gave of our relationship). And for the cherry on … Continue reading Asperger’s revisited. Autistic, gifted, sensitive, psychic?
I take it as a given that highly sensitive people (HSPs), intuitives and empaths have many unique strengths. You can find lists of them in almost any (upbeat) publication on the topic – sensitive people are typically deep thinkers, perceptive in the interpersonal, natural, and often cultural realms (think artists, musicians, writers), and often care … Continue reading Empathic sensitivity as an initiation journey
In a previous post, I have described the Catch-22 (crazy-making) situation of having empath experiences while not realising others don't. To keep up the reference to dystopic novels, over time this landed me in a serious 1984 episode of doublespeak. Because in believing that all people have intense empath and intuitive experiences which for some enigmatic … Continue reading 1984: why do they all doublespeak?
This is another episode from my empath story, this time in the form of a brief anatomy of madness. Because by my late teens, I thought I was going crazy. However, I never quite understood the logical structure of why. Now I think I do. I put it out there because I believe that phrasing … Continue reading Catch-22: seeing the elephant in the room, and not realising others don’t