So sometimes it really matters who says something. During my self-help era, I've read in so many self-help tomes about how you need to take small, consistent steps (merely writing this out makes me cringe). Consistent. Small. In other words – unstimulating. dull. mechanistic. boring. Just thinking about it is infuriating ... like heck, who … Continue reading Turtle steps vs. snail trails if you are trying to do sth. with ADD
I just ordered and received Francis Weller's "The Wild Edge of Sorrow". I haven't gotten beyond the introduction yet, but the resistance to buying that book was remarkable – despite the recommendation coming from a reliable source (Karla McLaren and the Dynamic Emotional Integration course, possibly my best source of book recommendations this year). Frankly, I … Continue reading Resistance and desire, studied with the example of acquiring books
There is no point in rushing oblivion Rushing forgetfulness. The imprint stays stuck in your heart for a while For a reason. An ember, a dried-up stick, half burnt. What's it still doing there, immobile. Seemingly useless. . I think sometimes If it's been thrown in under the right star sign It becomes a crystallisation … Continue reading Axis
This was another internet blind date; in the picturesque market square of an Eastern European provincial town boasting a city hall with an original Renaissance facade; artists trading sketches in the archways of crooked, colourful toy houses. I didn't know anything about her apart from the fact that she knew exotic spices and was a … Continue reading The heart of darkness. A true story about clairvoyance and queer-dating crazy scientists.
I've had a bunch of people telling me I'm a "shaman" lately. While this has certainly tickled my ego, as the term seems to at least carry the implication of being somehow special – I've started reflecting on all these things and what they mean. I've never interpreted my visions and encounters with what I'd … Continue reading Shamanism and insanity
This is something I have learnt to do after well over a year of actively investigating my empath radar. I realised that I can sometimes pick up completely different vibrations from the same person or object depending on my state of mind. The other flavours will still be there, but the dominating one will have … Continue reading Empath last ditch strategy: if you can’t switch it off, switch the channel
Here are some ways in which feeling others' emotions (as an empath) may differ from feeling your own: . 1. They are out of context. Usually when feeling your own sadness, you know what you are sad about, or can get to the Heart of Darkness (Conrad reference) on a reasonably short path of honest … Continue reading 6 signs that you are (literally) feeling others’ feelings
I can't believe it One of the big surprises and confusions for me when I “discovered” (was told, and slowly tested) the idea of being an empath was that I assumed that everyone feels this visceral, kinaesthetic echo of others’ emotions, state of being, soul and bodily states in their being. For me that was … Continue reading What do people look like if you don’t see energy?