Personal account of realising quite late that I've been masking autism (playing normal) for a very long time; recounting related history of mental health troubles, family insights (autistic parent), relationship insights, meltdowns and shutdowns, regrets, hopes, reflections, images, metaphors about the experience. From the perspective of a queer aspie; contains emotions, existential reflections, the Japanese flag as a substitute for a Dali painting, and resources on autistic women / girls and masking.
Camus says, "In the midst of winter, I finally found there was within me an invincible summer." However, Wu-men says: "Ten thousand flowers in spring, the moon in autumn, a cool breeze in summer, snow in winter. If your mind isn’t clouded by unnecessary things, this is the best season of your life." Sasha, … Continue reading Seasons of the psyche
Every since my first vipassana retreat in 2009, tools from the mindfulness family have been my preferred clearing tool for dealing with my own (often intense) experiences and emotions. While my meditation practice has not been formal or technical, I credit it with being the main tool that allowed me to gradually move out of … Continue reading Mindfulness-based energy clearing (for empaths and otherwise)
I was living an out-of-body experience for years without realising it. I think I'm not the only one, and I don't think empaths are exempt from this misconception. In fact, because of the sometimes painful emotional intensity that we experience in our bodies, we may be even more prone to abandoning them than other people. … Continue reading Struggling to find your ground?