Involuntary telepathy again, and book recommendation on (extra)sensory perception in autism

So I'm too tired and jaded to describe it, but it seems to have happened again – within the same couple of days probably twice. Event for which the simplest explanation is that for some reason I had a flash (in one case of less than a second, in the other longer – perhaps seconds or minutes) …

Autism and birth trauma

CW: medical trauma, but nothing graphic or detailed; some intense emotionThis is more a "documentary" note to self than anything else. Document some events and insights that I don't have the energy to describe in detail and analyse (in a comprehensible way) for the benefit of others at this moment. So, I had a dream …

ADD coaching at ADDCA vs. life coaching with rich white women

Well Ok, ADDCA seems pretty white, too. (It's just that Martha Beck said her coaching program may look like an expensive "white womens' thing".)I'm talking about the ADD Coach Academy, the first one ever founded to explicit focus on ADD, and that I got lured into because of having gotten a friendly chat with their …

How Berlin converted me to Marxism-Leninism

Well, not precisely. But in one of the cuddling sessions, N. said, matter shapes consciousness – rather than the reverse (or perhaps, much more than the reverse). I have not invested the time into researching whether this line of pop-marxism from the lips of my punk-dyed psychedelic-ingesting Berlin queer friend represents the theoretical plot accurately …

Guitar meditation #2 and autistic learning curves

https://soundcloud.com/sasha_tramp/longer-morning-guitar-meditation I've been trying to teach myself various musical instruments since I was a kid.  I think I tried to play guitar for the first time probably in primary school; as soon as my dad had one. There were always guitars in the house, in an era before youtube or even CD players, when my …

Doctor of philosophy

That's the title of a (Polish) jazz record my guitar teacher made. (In 2014, the time when I was seeking self, meaning and homeland in dusty & martyrological Warsaw and on the side benefitted from spending the British pounds I'd shnorred from the last PhD scholarship on professional guitar lessons with an actual jazz musician …

Ruining zen sketches on Dec 5

I frequently like my sketches much better than my finished paintings.  As mentioned in the previous post, I often prefer not to finish anything because my feeling is that adding more stuff will inevitably ruin it.  An example is provided below.  I enjoyed looking at this, vague landscape sketch. Leaving room for imagination. Pushed myself …

Sketch with monsters (Dec 5)

This started a week ago as spilling some red paint over a canvas to express some emotions of the same colour. There was initially a sketch of an animalistic monster and a madonna (the one from Haczów) in there, but I've covered it up in a forest of abstraction mostly.  I'm not sure I like …

Sensitivity is strength

I've just once again thought of changing the name of my blog. For one, not living up to it. For another, kind of a pretentious title.  Something absurd and witty perhaps.  Then a few days ago, I bumped into an article on "being too sensitive" on everydayfeminism.com. In the context of black people's emotional reactions to …