You are beautiful. there's some beauty, fragile like snow in between gestures and silence. your presence absorbs screams and grating sounds like sand absorbs raindrops. you lead me back to zero. . you lead me back to your zero. i hook my psi radar to it and i am calm or happy for a few … Continue reading snowflakes in august, springs of the clockwork
I still want all the glittering things. I want to adorn myself with feathers Of travels Knowledge Status Connection. . I still feel i am nothing If i am just a human being. . I still know very little Of how to provide for the actual human needs of a human being In this type … Continue reading Glittering things and human needs
Desire, hope, insecurity, disappointment. Hope, desire, hesitance, disappointment. Insecurity. Disappointment. Relief. . Some of us are bounceballs. But some are eggs. I'm not sure if you made sense of the sequences above, but that's what life seems to be made of in large part. For some of us these cycles are greater, deeper, more intense, … Continue reading How to keep your balance across cycles of desire and disappointment
Acceptance allergy I used to be allergic to the mere mention of "acceptance" in any kind of psychology or spirituality or self-help book. It would give me a psychological rash. Accept traumatic past events? Accept injustice? Accept the state of the world? . Acceptance solves most of your problems The general theme would be that … Continue reading How to misunderstand radical acceptance, and what being at home with sensations and emotions may mean.
This is the right-brain companion to my last crazy scientist dream post, which was giving you the fun theory of how I've gradually come, over the last 15+ years, to read some of my recurring, bewildering, intense, deep dream symbols as compass needles pointing me to dangers and potentials inherent in the various types of … Continue reading Using dreams as your soul’s GPS (2)
This is not a post about looking up dream symbols in encyclopaedias. It's about my 15+ years of engagement with intense, touching and puzzling dream symbols that have kept recurring, shifting, morphing, repeating again, progressing, regressing, throughout these years. Yes, admittedly it started with reading C. G. Jung. But the meat of it was unceasing … Continue reading How the crazy scientist uses dreams to navigate life challenges – in an empirical way
Late last year, perhaps in November, I decided to not be depressed anymore. A lot of crap had happened, and I was feeling crappy. I could sense myself going into the tailspin that I know really, really well – after hundreds (if not thousands? let me calculate the years) of repetitions. . Mindful, repetitious observation … Continue reading Is depression a choice?
Camus says, "In the midst of winter, I finally found there was within me an invincible summer." However, Wu-men says: "Ten thousand flowers in spring, the moon in autumn, a cool breeze in summer, snow in winter. If your mind isn’t clouded by unnecessary things, this is the best season of your life." Sasha, … Continue reading Seasons of the psyche
Every since my first vipassana retreat in 2009, tools from the mindfulness family have been my preferred clearing tool for dealing with my own (often intense) experiences and emotions. While my meditation practice has not been formal or technical, I credit it with being the main tool that allowed me to gradually move out of … Continue reading Mindfulness-based energy clearing (for empaths and otherwise)