Grief and truth; thoughts on ‘healing’ trauma and liminal experiences

Follow-up to yesterday's rambling spontaneous post, I guess. It does seem that when I really ask a question, internally, kind of earnestly – the answer sometimes actually shows up fast. (Sometimes slow, but this time it's instant delivery.) I don't think I jotted this down on this blog, but a while back I asked myself …

Turtle steps vs. snail trails if you are trying to do sth. with ADD

So sometimes it really matters who says something. During my self-help era, I've read in so many self-help tomes about how you need to take small, consistent steps (merely writing this out makes me cringe). Consistent. Small. In other words – unstimulating. dull. mechanistic. boring. Just thinking about it is infuriating ... like heck, who …

Exploring ADD: the ill-defined inner itch, addiction, putting the horse in front of the right cart

I'll do another pain-digestion, self-analysis post though. Just to get going writing again.Also, having "a life" (attempting to interact with broader society more), it's harder to blog without giving specifics and details. Which I don't like. Apparently my concept of "privacy" is pretty inverted – no problem laying my feelings and dilemmas bare before the …

Further struggling with Martha Beck … ouff. A whole load of life events, and peer support.

I don't know where to start. I haven't been writing much on this site mostly because my life got more interesting – I mostly stopped the depression thing, got more energy, which drove me nuts in new ways :D, so I decided to shoot it wildly in all directions including relocating to various new countries …

Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?

At the end of my first post on autism and complex PTSD, I emptily promised a follow-up article pondering the nature of flashbacks vs. meltdowns. Many autistic folks also have C-PTSD (= more or less permanent habit and perception shifts in response to repeated trauma – which doesn't have to look "dramatic" from the outside; see …

Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns

I have recently decided to understand the economy (ambitious project, but let's say) – and of course I won't go for some standard textbook (if the standard approach wasn't so off-putting to me, I would have mastered this in kindergarten). No, I went for Charles Eisenstein's hippie-spiritual "Sacred Economics" (since I liked his other books) and …

The “waking up from a nightmare” experience

For the last two years approximately, I have entered a living situation that was a continuous, multiple-times-a-day "trigger" (however much I dislike the term) for a long and partly intergenerational C-PTSD story around migration. In brief, I was living in the country whose mere language sets off reactions in me that are (seriously and by …

Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus

Yesterday I saw another person asking about autism and trauma on the #ActuallyAutistic Twitter. I didn't have the energy to redirect them to the few resources I know, but thought I'd chronicle a couple more personal observations on the topic, whether for future use or for other folk to tell me if this is what …

Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies

Yesterday I was secretly intending to comment on my current reading of Steve Silberman's Neurotribes (an ultra-short summary is in his TED talk, which motivated me to read the book finally). Maybe I can get to it in a round-about way. Ever since a bunch of friends half-convinced me that I can obviously classify myself …