Existential essays in genderqueer neurodiversity
On Pete Walker's book about Complex PTSD, the Fawn response to emotional neglect, how sensitive we are and how confusing mind-reading can become the habitual response to confronting humans.
Another post on how to cope with intuitive gifts (or liabilities) that come without a manual, or when your inner life apparently isn't only *your* inner life. Trauma-informed and psychologically literate, non-esoteric perspective.
Essay on how shifting from frozen panic to being present with live panic can actually be a window of opportunity if you have the skills. And the value found in enforced periods of intense introverted presence.
The irony of seeing my lifestyle imposed on the whole country and when my normal is suddenly the new normal; me & partner complaining about a lack of solitude under self-isolation; and when your maladaptive behaviours suddenly become adaptive.
This article is written from the perspective of people who randomly experience things like "sensing presences" and some types of out-of-body experiences, in addition to intuitive coincidences and sometimes the whole range of depersonalisation phenomena – explicitly not from the perspective of people who actively seek this kind of thing and/or project hopes of awesome powers … Continue reading How to cope with your intuitive gifts?
While being fried about my frustrations by a wise person yesterday, I realised that apparently I have adopted over the last year or two a survival strategy that I had once looked down on when implemented by my mother: The strategy of avoiding, hiding, pushing out of mind your desires when it is clear that … Continue reading Is it better to repress desires or suffer the emotions of unfulfillment?
I usually don't write about the good times on here because writing is mostly my tool for getting through the tougher times. When I'm well, I stay off screens; I stay outdoors, or around people without distracting myself with electronic devices. Some thoughts have been circulating lately around the topic of trauma healing (in this … Continue reading Getting half a handle on some basic trauma-digestion processes
In a "better", by most measures, life situation, still waves of this "post-war" type of apocalyptic depression return at critical moments. I guess I call it post-war because the inner image my eye sees is perhaps akin to how Warsaw after the uprising gets pictured (below an artist's rendering, I believe). The inner image is … Continue reading More ropes for traversing despair and depression; perhaps on perinatal trauma
In a previous post I have documented the process of ruining a simple landscape sketch. Since I don't like wasting canvasses (or wasting paint), I keep occasionally trying to somehow "fix" or improve the situation of that horrible canvas. I figured out that one of the reasons I ruin sketches is that by adding more … Continue reading Recycling ruined canvasses is like working with your past.
