Grief and truth; thoughts on ‘healing’ trauma and liminal experiences

Follow-up to yesterday's rambling spontaneous post, I guess. It does seem that when I really ask a question, internally, kind of earnestly – the answer sometimes actually shows up fast. (Sometimes slow, but this time it's instant delivery.) I don't think I jotted this down on this blog, but a while back I asked myself … Continue reading Grief and truth; thoughts on ‘healing’ trauma and liminal experiences

Turtle steps vs. snail trails if you are trying to do sth. with ADD

So sometimes it really matters who says something. During my self-help era, I've read in so many self-help tomes about how you need to take small, consistent steps (merely writing this out makes me cringe). Consistent. Small. In other words – unstimulating. dull. mechanistic. boring. Just thinking about it is infuriating ... like heck, who … Continue reading Turtle steps vs. snail trails if you are trying to do sth. with ADD

Exploring ADD: the ill-defined inner itch, addiction, putting the horse in front of the right cart

I'll do another pain-digestion, self-analysis post though. Just to get going writing again.Also, having "a life" (attempting to interact with broader society more), it's harder to blog without giving specifics and details. Which I don't like. Apparently my concept of "privacy" is pretty inverted – no problem laying my feelings and dilemmas bare before the … Continue reading Exploring ADD: the ill-defined inner itch, addiction, putting the horse in front of the right cart

Further struggling with Martha Beck … ouff. A whole load of life events, and peer support.

I don't know where to start. I haven't been writing much on this site mostly because my life got more interesting – I mostly stopped the depression thing, got more energy, which drove me nuts in new ways :D, so I decided to shoot it wildly in all directions including relocating to various new countries … Continue reading Further struggling with Martha Beck … ouff. A whole load of life events, and peer support.

Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?

At the end of my first post on autism and complex PTSD, I emptily promised a follow-up article pondering the nature of flashbacks vs. meltdowns. Many autistic folks also have C-PTSD (= more or less permanent habit and perception shifts in response to repeated trauma – which doesn't have to look "dramatic" from the outside; see … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?

Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns

I have recently decided to understand the economy (ambitious project, but let's say) – and of course I won't go for some standard textbook (if the standard approach wasn't so off-putting to me, I would have mastered this in kindergarten). No, I went for Charles Eisenstein's hippie-spiritual "Sacred Economics" (since I liked his other books) and … Continue reading Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns

The “waking up from a nightmare” experience

For the last two years approximately, I have entered a living situation that was a continuous, multiple-times-a-day "trigger" (however much I dislike the term) for a long and partly intergenerational C-PTSD story around migration. In brief, I was living in the country whose mere language sets off reactions in me that are (seriously and by … Continue reading The “waking up from a nightmare” experience

Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus

Yesterday I saw another person asking about autism and trauma on the #ActuallyAutistic Twitter. I didn't have the energy to redirect them to the few resources I know, but thought I'd chronicle a couple more personal observations on the topic, whether for future use or for other folk to tell me if this is what … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus

Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies

Yesterday I was secretly intending to comment on my current reading of Steve Silberman's Neurotribes (an ultra-short summary is in his TED talk, which motivated me to read the book finally). Maybe I can get to it in a round-about way. Ever since a bunch of friends half-convinced me that I can obviously classify myself … Continue reading Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies