Autism and birth trauma

CW: medical trauma, but nothing graphic or detailed; some intense emotionThis is more a "documentary" note to self than anything else. Document some events and insights that I don't have the energy to describe in detail and analyse (in a comprehensible way) for the benefit of others at this moment. So, I had a dream …

Turtle steps vs. snail trails if you are trying to do sth. with ADD

So sometimes it really matters who says something. During my self-help era, I've read in so many self-help tomes about how you need to take small, consistent steps (merely writing this out makes me cringe). Consistent. Small. In other words – unstimulating. dull. mechanistic. boring. Just thinking about it is infuriating ... like heck, who …

ADD coaching at ADDCA vs. life coaching with rich white women

Well Ok, ADDCA seems pretty white, too. (It's just that Martha Beck said her coaching program may look like an expensive "white womens' thing".)I'm talking about the ADD Coach Academy, the first one ever founded to explicit focus on ADD, and that I got lured into because of having gotten a friendly chat with their …

Exploring ADD: the ill-defined inner itch, addiction, putting the horse in front of the right cart

I'll do another pain-digestion, self-analysis post though. Just to get going writing again.Also, having "a life" (attempting to interact with broader society more), it's harder to blog without giving specifics and details. Which I don't like. Apparently my concept of "privacy" is pretty inverted – no problem laying my feelings and dilemmas bare before the …

Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?

At the end of my first post on autism and complex PTSD, I emptily promised a follow-up article pondering the nature of flashbacks vs. meltdowns. Many autistic folks also have C-PTSD (= more or less permanent habit and perception shifts in response to repeated trauma – which doesn't have to look "dramatic" from the outside; see …

Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns

I have recently decided to understand the economy (ambitious project, but let's say) – and of course I won't go for some standard textbook (if the standard approach wasn't so off-putting to me, I would have mastered this in kindergarten). No, I went for Charles Eisenstein's hippie-spiritual "Sacred Economics" (since I liked his other books) and …

The “waking up from a nightmare” experience

For the last two years approximately, I have entered a living situation that was a continuous, multiple-times-a-day "trigger" (however much I dislike the term) for a long and partly intergenerational C-PTSD story around migration. In brief, I was living in the country whose mere language sets off reactions in me that are (seriously and by …

Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus

Yesterday I saw another person asking about autism and trauma on the #ActuallyAutistic Twitter. I didn't have the energy to redirect them to the few resources I know, but thought I'd chronicle a couple more personal observations on the topic, whether for future use or for other folk to tell me if this is what …

Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies

Yesterday I was secretly intending to comment on my current reading of Steve Silberman's Neurotribes (an ultra-short summary is in his TED talk, which motivated me to read the book finally). Maybe I can get to it in a round-about way. Ever since a bunch of friends half-convinced me that I can obviously classify myself …