At the end of my first post on autism and complex PTSD, I emptily promised a follow-up article pondering the nature of flashbacks vs. meltdowns. Many autistic folks also have C-PTSD (= more or less permanent habit and perception shifts in response to repeated trauma – which doesn't have to look "dramatic" from the outside; see … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?
I have recently decided to understand the economy (ambitious project, but let's say) – and of course I won't go for some standard textbook (if the standard approach wasn't so off-putting to me, I would have mastered this in kindergarten). No, I went for Charles Eisenstein's hippie-spiritual "Sacred Economics" (since I liked his other books) and … Continue reading Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns
Yesterday I saw another person asking about autism and trauma on the #ActuallyAutistic Twitter. I didn't have the energy to redirect them to the few resources I know, but thought I'd chronicle a couple more personal observations on the topic, whether for future use or for other folk to tell me if this is what … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus
Yesterday I was secretly intending to comment on my current reading of Steve Silberman's Neurotribes (an ultra-short summary is in his TED talk, which motivated me to read the book finally). Maybe I can get to it in a round-about way. Ever since a bunch of friends half-convinced me that I can obviously classify myself … Continue reading Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies
I'm trying quite hard, at least in my imagination (:D) to not let this blog die, but possibly still its time has come. Paradoxically the reason is having a certain readership that reduces the sense of anonymity and thus the scope for indulging freely into self-therapy through rambling, in between writing more analytic pieces about … Continue reading Transformation & multiplicity leading over to ahamkara and neurotribes
On the intersections between Complex PTSD and autism. Are there autistics who don't "catch" C-PTSD? Are there autism-specific forms and healing paths? And my idea of autism-specific causes (hint: double-empathy problem). Welcomes feedback.
This is a mixed essay starting out with my personal struggles with the "autistic" label to complaints about rigid identity politics towards bookish theories about a missing distinction between the sensitivity vs. coping strategies dimensions of the "autism" concept.
I've taken "days off" from some of my daily routine activities in the name of attempting to do an intelligent emotional aikido move that I'd call "diving under the wave". Some sensation of lowness, slowness and heaviness hit me like a massive wave hits a beach, resulting in some disintegration as well, and I decided … Continue reading Burnout and diving under the wave.
Inspired by almost a year of working through Karla McLaren's Dynamic Emotional Integration model, and more recently specifically by Jessica Moore's articulate video on situational depression (the one that comes closest to my felt truth on the matter so far), I have recently on a long train ride taken up the resolution to try out … Continue reading The new strategy with grief, sadness and depression