Long break from writing. Moving to another city in another country and a different (sub)culture, living with something like a partner, dealing with city, changes, trying to manage arranging an apartment. Too much to deal with to keep a focus on writing. Both good times in a busy way, and just overwhelm from too many … Continue reading Update on autistics in cities, sanity as a currency and tribal apoptosis
I have to talk to the spirits For a number of hours Daily to keep the order. . You have to earn the money, You have to take care of the house, You have to buy things Take care of people. Learn things Create things Show things Prove things. . It is hard to swallow … Continue reading I have to talk to the spirits
hibernation slowness interiority clearly, the solstice has passed. clearly ... the inner ball of light takes on a glow becomes more distinct as the outer light fades. there is a relief. rain. there is a phase, justified by nature, for retreating. for thinking, for curling the energy inwards. digestion. of the year. (of the heat … Continue reading Eclipse
Being me for me always implies some degree of being you. My nature doesn't come with built-in walls and noise cancellation and convenient, numb dampening. It must be comfortable to be cushioned, exposed largely only to your own thoughts. I can do that if i am alone in the forest. Or if i live very … Continue reading Being you
You aren't writing. A snake bit me It followed me across the Pyrenees The snake of opposites. . It wants me to achieve Coniunctio oppositorum Or balance Or perhaps it is just here To play the game of layers and cards To chop away at a rock whose shape i have not yet recognised A … Continue reading Melange from the mountains
I wear other people's clothes. I can't resist wanting to know what it's like to be you. Maybe it's better than being me. . Maybe it's a bit of relief from being me. A north star, because being me is disorienting. Quiet and disorienting in that no one has taught me to read the shapes … Continue reading I wear other people’s clothes
At the court of the prince. Pain emerges, the dream gushes forth into seas of the soul turned inside out and, unfortunately, upside down. Mars in retrograde doesn't explain the strings of pain in my stomach. But the arid yet formidable winds of Saturn, and the inverted faces of Mars and Venus -- you've almost … Continue reading The astrologer visits
I've just finished drafting the first part of my empath guide project. It answers the ominous yet fundamental question ... Are you an empath? ... in a way you probably aren't used to, with a logical and science-trained aspie mind that's been obsessing about these questions for a while. No angels, crystals, orbs, salt baths, … Continue reading A slightly scientific empath guide (with neuroscience and synaesthesia). Part 1.
I have written both about high sensitivity (in Elaine Aron's sense) and energy sensitivity before. In the last weeks, as I have been receiving guests to my hermitage after a looong (involuntary) solitary retreat, and especially last weekend, it "clicked" for me. Below is another fun exercise in cataloguing human neurodiversity (or my obnoxious pattern-matching … Continue reading What is the difference between high sensitivity and energy sensitivity? HSP vs. empath. Features the ghost at the lake.