Umbrele nopţii (Diaconescu), Living While Black (Kinouani), and the Berlin Wall Memorial

This is a chaotic post that describes a bunch of thought currents that met in a day or two. I landed in Berlin again, and when wandering aimlessly, I once again bumped into the Wall Memorial path near Mauerpark. I had been there before, but never explicitly to look at the historical photos and read …

Miquel Missé – The Myth of the Wrong Body (El Mito del Cuerpo Equivocado); sociological take on trans theory… why gender is like horoscopes.

Why gender is like horoscopes.

The multi-headed hydra and the nature of Evil

Not many news on this blog also because since February, I have been chewing on philosophical questions that are not particularly within the topic area of this blog. I quite dislike evil. I haven't had an awful lot of exposure to evil in my childhood, nor really in my youth. Sometimes I didn't recognise it, …

Retour to shamanism – experiencing spirits and past lives without a cosmology in the modern West

Ok, prepare for an incoherent post. I haven't been writing for a long time again, because of the usual distractions of travel, dilemmas, and dramas. A few months ago I started listening to podcasts from Last Mask Center, based on a recommendation from Wildseed Society (asked them for shamanism trainings that aren't racist and appropriative …

Exodus from paradise and forced return to following politics (comments on Ukraine war from Poland)

This is more a generalised update post. I have been toying with various article topic ideas, but in the end the point is that my best friend has a crisis and can't listen (incl. to my newest theories), and I don't feel like paying a stranger to listen, so I'll once again simply write up …

Why I’m giving my therapy money to antiracism work

This is maybe a provocative title, but I guess it's my conclusion on a quite long "healing journey" – I should start paying the people who are actually contributing to my sanity. I think that's the conclusion because the longer I live, the more I realise that almost none of the problems that have sent …

Involuntary telepathy again, and book recommendation on (extra)sensory perception in autism

So I'm too tired and jaded to describe it, but it seems to have happened again – within the same couple of days probably twice. Event for which the simplest explanation is that for some reason I had a flash (in one case of less than a second, in the other longer – perhaps seconds or minutes) …

Grief and truth; thoughts on ‘healing’ trauma and liminal experiences

Follow-up to yesterday's rambling spontaneous post, I guess. It does seem that when I really ask a question, internally, kind of earnestly – the answer sometimes actually shows up fast. (Sometimes slow, but this time it's instant delivery.) I don't think I jotted this down on this blog, but a while back I asked myself …

Autism and birth trauma

CW: medical trauma, but nothing graphic or detailed; some intense emotionThis is more a "documentary" note to self than anything else. Document some events and insights that I don't have the energy to describe in detail and analyse (in a comprehensible way) for the benefit of others at this moment. So, I had a dream …