Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns?

At the end of my first post on autism and complex PTSD, I emptily promised a follow-up article pondering the nature of flashbacks vs. meltdowns. Many autistic folks also have C-PTSD (= more or less permanent habit and perception shifts in response to repeated trauma – which doesn't have to look "dramatic" from the outside; see … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD: What’s the difference between flashbacks and meltdowns? →

Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns

I have recently decided to understand the economy (ambitious project, but let's say) – and of course I won't go for some standard textbook (if the standard approach wasn't so off-putting to me, I would have mastered this in kindergarten). No, I went for Charles Eisenstein's hippie-spiritual "Sacred Economics" (since I liked his other books) and … Continue reading Why I don’t want to have a gender identity, and languages without gendered pronouns →

The “waking up from a nightmare” experience

For the last two years approximately, I have entered a living situation that was a continuous, multiple-times-a-day "trigger" (however much I dislike the term) for a long and partly intergenerational C-PTSD story around migration. In brief, I was living in the country whose mere language sets off reactions in me that are (seriously and by … Continue reading The “waking up from a nightmare” experience →

Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus

Yesterday I saw another person asking about autism and trauma on the #ActuallyAutistic Twitter. I didn't have the energy to redirect them to the few resources I know, but thought I'd chronicle a couple more personal observations on the topic, whether for future use or for other folk to tell me if this is what … Continue reading Autism and C-PTSD featuring the parthenogenetic octopus →

Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies

Yesterday I was secretly intending to comment on my current reading of Steve Silberman's Neurotribes (an ultra-short summary is in his TED talk, which motivated me to read the book finally). Maybe I can get to it in a round-about way. Ever since a bunch of friends half-convinced me that I can obviously classify myself … Continue reading Bastardising Neurotribes with indigenous cosmologies →

Transformation & multiplicity leading over to ahamkara and neurotribes

I'm trying quite hard, at least in my imagination (:D) to not let this blog die, but possibly still its time has come. Paradoxically the reason is having a certain readership that reduces the sense of anonymity and thus the scope for indulging freely into self-therapy through rambling, in between writing more analytic pieces about … Continue reading Transformation & multiplicity leading over to ahamkara and neurotribes →

Cabinet of mirrors (or “the weeks of karma”)

This is just a short motivational / intention note. With the renewed travel restrictions in Europe, it seems like I'll be stuck in the big city for the next period. This wasn't my preferred choice, I'd already had too much of it in the spring lockdown period, and escaped in summer as much as possible … Continue reading Cabinet of mirrors (or “the weeks of karma”) →